Algorithms and Data Structures

The ultimate sophistication, they say, is the virtue of simplicity. After the Calculus and Convolution theories I give you a great resource on Algorithms and Data Structures. A very simple yet appealing approach. Make the best use of it.

Link : Data Structures and Algoritms

[ Due credits inside the pdf ]

Stephen "Sandaime" Vadakkan (simply Sandaime to me) has always been a mentor to many. A new path he has decided to take. A new road to tread. I'd tell my usual line "May the Force be with you" to convey my wishes but in his case I'll have to crank it. Sensei, "You are the Force". Continue to ignite the souls and enlighten the minds.

A line dedicated to you:

"Whenever someone thinks of you, that's where home is"

- Jiraiya, The Gallant.

Quote of the Month

"Some people lose their faith because heaven shows them too little, but how many people lose their faith because heaven shows them too much?"

- Thomas.

Line is from the movie Prophecy(1995). Christopher Walken as archangel Gabriel delivers one of his best performances.

P.S. I don't and I never will believe in heaven, hell, leprechauns or god/gods. :)

The Lament of Chaosmonger

Konichiwa readers,

Long time no see,eh? Yeah! This blog has become impotent. The content is occasionally updated and an overwhelming majority of the traffic coming in consists of people who were looking for porn. Statistics speak quite loud: 12 out of the last 20 hits had searched for words like "porn" and its cousins.

You see, I am totally lost. I have no "purpose". I'd mentioned in past post about my gray matter decaying. My response time is now on an all time low. My memory is failing me. The crazy sarcastic whiner in me is dead. I have lost the force to oppose inertia, to reason to ask questions and the balls to fight the inertness. Life suddenly is not a bitch anymore....

Have I become a defeatist? I don't know. What I know is that this state of despondent fatalism is brain's way of committing euthanasia. Its desperate attempt to save itself from disintegration. This morose state is here to stay until I find some sunshine.

FAQ's

Q. Whats your problem?
A. I don't have time or the energy to explain this.

Q. Is crying over the corpse going to help?
A. No, it wont. But talking to you will not help me either.

Q. There are so many people who's lives are worse. Why do you get discouraged?
A. Are you ready to skip your lunch and dinner because 1 billion people are starving and still feel good about yourself?

Q. God has plans for you. Why worry?
A. (start counting from 100 to 0).

(This one is the worst of the lot)
Q. Hows Life?
A. **Silence**

The melancholiness gets compounded when people surrounding me act in ways that cannot be explained. People I once thought were friends act like foes now... their attitude repulsive. Acknowledging each others presence is a big shit of a deal for many. Deceit and hatred dictate the order of the day. Every person in workplace and outside is jealous, greedy and constantly scheming and plotting against someone. Each one is building a bridge of corpses to reach the top. It really doesn't matter whose corpse it is.

Was the Nefarious Sentient Being right when he said that heavens can only be reached by climbing the tower of cadaver? Was I stupid in believing "evil is evil"? Are conscience and compassion the enemies of perpetuance? Was Spinoza right when he said "humility is the hypocrisy of a schemer or timidity of a slave" ? Reminds me of this line by Uchiha Itachi, "You are weak. Why are you weak? Because you lack ... hatred."

Where is peace? Where is serenity? Where is the atonement? Live yet another day expecting the dawn to bring deliverance.... and continue to dream of sitting in Dogen's temple sipping tea with the monks. Amor fati people, amor fati.

Chao.

Apologies

The previous post had to be deleted. Apologies for that. Regular Blogging will resume asap.

Fact of the Month

The Mayans believed eating earwax would bring fertility.

One of the grossest facts I've come across... yuck!

Things that I learnt...

Hell! You should've seen posts with "Things that I learnt blah blah" title in a zillion blogs. This one is slightly different.

Lemme get started.

• Murphy's law is the most fundamental law in the universe. (To hell with what physicists say)
• Brutal self delusional optimism is not good. You only end up creating a fool out of yourself.
• Don't try to fall in love. Trying and pretending to fall in love when you don't know what love is will only make it worse.
• Don't be an outspoken atheist. Keep your enlightenment up to yourselves. People are fools and will continue to be so.
• People will not love you for what you are. Give them what they want and everyone will be happy.
• Approachable + Open + Sweet = Vulnerable asshole.
• Aggressive + Plangent + Rich = Greek God. (looks don't matter)
• Think before you say "Yes".
• People will be nice to you. Don't fall for it. There is a greedy wolf in everyman and a selfish bitch in every woman.
• 99% perspiration + 1% inspiration = 100% Bullshit. If you believe that hard work will lead to success then explain how unworthy jerks succeed.
• Don't feel pity for others. They don't deserve it.

The last one was told by a consultant in one of the programs which I'd attended. Here it goes:

Don't Take Shit from People.

P.S. The above words were just a small subset of the boundless wisdom of the TCM.

Steamless Post

An nyoung Readers,

My life has been full of shit. Nothing bad has happened but then its not what it used to be before. I've lost the interest to write. Blogging is spontaneous... it just happens. Its the interest that I don't have. Now I know why people begin cribbing once they start working. I feel my gray matter is decaying. I am slow. The processing speed has become worse than a Celeron machine. I cant crack the "connect quizzes" like I used to. Weekends go wasted. Sleep and sleep more. My successive posts are becoming progressively bad. Worse, they are becoming mediocre.

Happiness is not something that persists for long. Universe just fucks the happiness out of my life. I don't know where I am heading. I feel like a formula-1 driver driving blindfolded.

The song "Space-Dye Vest" by Dream Theater captures this moment just right. Do listen to it. Trust me, its hard for any human being to dislike it. Don't blame me if this song starts haunting you.

Last few lines go like this:

"There's no one to take my blame
if they wanted to
There's nothing to keep me sane
and it's all the same to you
There's nowhere to set my aim
so I'm everywhere
Never come near me again
do you really think I need you
I'll never be open again, I could never be open again.
I'll never be open again, I could never be open again.
And I'll smile and I'll learn to pretend
And I'll never be open again
And I'll have no more dreams to defend
And I'll never be open again"

http://www.last.fm/music/Dream+Theater/_/Space+Dye+Vest

My guitarist friend Syd deserves a special mention here for telling me about this song. A million Thanks buddy. I love the way the whole band kicks in at the end. Bless Kevin Moore. Portnoy's drums are flawless as usual. Cant even think of playing this song... I fuck things up badly when I play 16th notes.

Hope the much needed "come back" will happen soon. Bye till then.